spinster
i’ve been a very bad mom lately… i haven’t been myself since this whole escrow / condo thing started. plus, over the last month, i haven’t been home all that much.
so i guess it’s not surprising that a few weeks ago, Tigger nipped me in the face for the first time. it left a nice gash on the right side of my face, next to my eye. it’s probably going to scar a little.
since that incident, i’ve kept the door closed to my room when i sleep. i’ve been scared he’ll do it to me in my sleep again.
last night, i decided to open the door again. but he already found another napping place upstairs.
and i can’t sleep.
on another, sad note, Geoff & i ended our 2-1/2 year adventure.
life sure is “funny” sometimes. times like these make me want to go back home, where i have much more support to get through difficult periods. once again, Hell-A has kept me here, with a new “home” & another chapter. i’ll figure it out, i always do.
but perhaps the money tree will find a way to survive.
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in times like these
in times like those
what will be will be
and so it goes
and it always goes
on and on and on and on and on
on and on and on and on and on it goes
and there’ll always be laughin’, cryin’, birth and dyin’
boys and girls with hearts that take and give and break
and heal and grow and recreate and raise and nurture
but then hurt
from times
to times like these
in times like those
what will be will be
and so it goes
and there will always be
stop and go and fast and slow action reaction
sticks and stones and broken bones
those for peace and those for war
and god bless these ones not those ones but these ones
make times like these
and times like those
what will be will be
and so it goes
and it always goes
on and on and on and on and on
on and on and on and on and on it goes
somehow i know, it won’t be the same
somehow i know, never be the same
-jack johnson, on & on
August 25th, 2006 at 6:35 am
i’m stunned. really. i thought everything somehow would work itself out. manay, you are strong and beautiful and not a spinster. if anything that we’ve learned in life, it’s that people will surprise you. it may be in a good or a bad way, but somehow we push through and move onto the next place in life.
and you know what sucks about being “single” at a certain age if you are a female? we get stuck with the phrases “spinster” and “old maid” while men get categorized as “bachelor” and “playboy”. such negative connotation for the same meaning, irrespective of gender. you are NOT a spinster. you are beautiful, always remember that!
August 25th, 2006 at 5:32 pm
Jamie there is no way that you can end up a spinster, you are too beautiful and too deserving both inside and out.
I will save that money tree.
I’m sorry that I’m being selfish.
Regardless, you are in my heart and always on my mind.
G~
August 27th, 2006 at 7:16 pm
I love you Manay, and I know that you’re a strong person who will get through this. I am here for you… always, even though it might not seem like it. I’ll support you in whatever you decide to do.
September 24th, 2007 at 3:11 pm
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